WHILE DRIVING.

      I saw myself driving while I was cooking dinner the other night, and the chatterbox started its job of ruining the moment, because she knows that I love to cook, and so let it free to start its routine of going back on my day and of course I stop again in that moment where while driving I was fighting with all the cars that under my view drive like idiots, not me, no no no, I drive pretty well, well decent at least, the thing is, that I hated myself again for judging with the typical standard that everybody seems to perfectly know who is behind the wheel of that blue car, red car, minivan, "oh! of course, she's a woman!", he's old, he's a teenager, or "I'm pretty sure he's intoxicated, he's driving with his legs", is he blind?, why do I always get all the red lights, all the traffic, and it's raining and I just washed the car!

    I don't know if this happens to you in a daily basis, but it does happen to me, more times in a single day, from what I want to, I say to God: "oh! thank you God, you did stop me from cursing to that human today, I didn't say any bad words, and even if I did, he couldn't hear me anyway. Really?...The words are already there, pouring in my mind like rivers to the ocean, God can not only see them, but by now, He is maybe already trying to not hear my thoughts, they're even worse than the old lady driving at 30 miles per hour in a 70 miles highway!

     All these emotions, all this stress, all this new little normals, take a big toll in our well being, the atmosphere fells different, people with mask connect with us in a alien way, I don't understand faces without a smile, is strange, days are strange, I believe. I came back to my chicken soup & Gilmore Girls in the TV, and said to myself: "Jesus take the wheel" like Carrie's Underwood song, I drive to fast and music is always too loud that I can't even hear an ambulance, did I forget that I'm always driving with my kids?

     So next time I drive myself to anywhere, I will remember Who is at the Wheel, who is in the back seat, and I will also remember to be kind to each of the drivers out there, I don't know their stories, but God does, and He's telling me to be calm, be safe, the world is heavy right now, don't make it heavier.

Cynthia of the Light.